Day 1

Today is a good day except for my back pain....I went to the doctor the other day and asked for an x-ray...but all they could do was tell me I couldn't get one because of my weight. The x-ray table would only hold 300lbs. You can imagine how embarrassed I was. So they just gave me some flexoreel which doesn't work for me, and some more blood pressure pills.

I hate the doctor anyway, but to make matters worse I got a mean doctor.

She said, " There is no hope for you with a regular diet because of your morbid obesity. You really need a full time job with benefits because you're going to HAVE to get the LapBand or a Gastric Bypass."

Now, those were words of encouragment.
That's what made me realize I'm too good of a person to die from a heart attack because I'm too fat.

All of my friends around me are losing weight, and I just don't understand why I can't, but this time I'm serious.  My mother even joined weight watchers, which makes me soooooo happy!!! And now she wants to have a competition....I guess that's motivation.  My whole family is overweight, and it hurts me to see us like that. I don't believe in genetics making someone fat. So that is how I am going to live my life....It's only up to me.

So far today I've had a bowl of oatmeal, and for lunch I will have a chicken sandwich with only one piece of bread on it.

That's all I have for now.

Until next time!

much love, mandi

My starting line

I recently posted a status on facebook to let the world know that I am tired being fat and negative....more so, fat.  Since I let the world know, I guess I have no choice but to follow through with it. 

I will be posting on here as much as I can to let everyone know my progress, my feelings, my motivations, etc.

I would appreciate words of encouragment every now and then just so I know I'm not alone in this process.

I realize that not many people will read this, much less respond to it, but I'm willing to try it out.

I'm going to put myself out there and let everyone know my weight and my struggles so you all will realize how serious this is to me.

Here it goes:

My weight is at a total of 340 lbs.
I am on high blood pressure pills.
I am on thyroid pills.
I'm not even close to diabetic...which is a good thing.
I have severe back pain to the point where it hurts to stand.
I do have some energy, but it doesn't last very long.
And I want to have kids someday, but not until I fix this.

I can't even take care of myself, much less another human being.

Ok....now I've said all there is to know.

Wish me luck!

~Mandi~